Thought Diary - Upside Down Snow Globe

It has been a year, Probably the most eventful year of my life. Photo by Ian Schneider on Unsplash I will begin with a quote unsplash. I love these quotes. I collected them throughout this year.You may find them inspiring too! But we are always searching for truth…. That is constant. - Kurisu Can we really ignore our existence or our purpose? Not for long. We always look for meaning, truth, or whatever you call it. We, humans, may appear different and have different beliefs, but in the end, we are always searching. Doubt ourselves, lose our way, but never stop walking. - Gin We don't always know what is the right thing to do. We don't always know what to do with our lives, and that is ok. Without doubts, we will never be open about ourselves. Without constant thinking, we will never learn and grow. Time will never stop. Change will never stop. We also need to never stop, walking, changing, thinking, doing.  Struggle valiantly through life while waiting f...

2017 Prime. Odd. Sums up to 10/10.   Jokes Aside.  Let's recap my life this year. January I remember my Junior year of high school. Reading 10 pages of history book every day and taking a page of notes to prepare for pop quizzes. In Calculus, we also started learning series and conditions for convergence and divergence. Hard times.  3/10 February Fencing season ended. We took pictures of seniors under a balloon archway. My record was pretty negative. I have a win/loss ratio of less than 0.5. I also remember volunteering to keep a door closed at the Chinese New Year party. I started preparing for Moody's Mega Math Challenge, 14 hours of using math to predict sea-level in the next 50 years.  5/10 March More notes. AP Economics. History. Calculus. Taylor series.... We had a big history commercial project. I planned out an elaborate commercial, but the plot was ruined by a group of boys' propensity of adding stupid things. Also, I lase...

Truth hurts.  Don't we all know that? Truth hurts, because it is not how we want it to be. We want lots of things, but most of those things will not happen. That is why truth hurts. We do not want to fail. We do not want to be reminded that we are not that awesome.  Photo by Christian Nielsen on Unsplash. Expectations.  One of our greatest cognitive ability is the ability to simulate and experiment. I can imagine someone's reaction to certain actions, such as a poke. Most people would turn around to find out what is poking them. We can predict this because we have seen it hundreds of times ourselves. We learn from history, and history binds us. No.  History is a part of us.  Without the past, we would not be who we are. Without learning and seeing all the intricacies of life, we would be lost in this complex world. Without practicing tasks over and over again, we would not be able to do anything efficiently. History is similar to experience. The...

I tried to kill it, but I couldn't.  In order to prepare for my rejection letter to a certain undergrad university on the west coast, I tried to convince myself that I will get rejected to dampen the despair when I get the real rejection letter. However, no matter how hard I tried, I just could not put away the thin ray of hope for acceptance.  Immortal,  Hope is immortal. No matter what happens, we will always yearn for something we do not have, whether it be material or mental. Even when we deprive ourselves of hope, even when we empty our minds, can we really put away the tingly sensation that flutters around like a butterfly in the back of our minds? Photo by Ray Hennessy on Unsplash. but insubstantial.  While we cannot kill hope, hope doesn't really have any real impact on our three-dimensional life. They are mere butterflies, after all. Even if hope fly to us heads on, we will barely be able to feel its impact. If we try to catch hope, we wil...

Darker spark.  Such irony. Yet true.  I started this blog from one single metaphor, a spark, and that is the upside down snow globe metaphor : life without action is boring, but we can make it exciting by taking initiative and turning life upside down, much like how we turn a snow globe upside down.  Conflict.  The world is relative. Success is sweetest for those who fail. Money is sweetest for those who do not have enough. Romance is sweetest for those who do not have romance... Without stress, there would be no relaxation. Without struggle, there would be no achievement. Without war, there would be no peace Art from Fate/Stay Unlimited Blade Works Wait. What? Can there be peace without war? Humans always fought each other for one thing or another, verbally or physically. It is only natural to fight when we all are unique and have differing opinions. Peace is learning to live in harmony despite differences and friction.  The Upside Down...